Journal entry: Henninger Flats

Yes, this is a portion of last night's journal entry, only edited a little. If you get squeamish reading someone else's journal, then consider yourself warned. I'm posting this here partly to remind myself, but partly because it touches on some things that I have been struggling with and I think that sometimes it's good to open the windows and get the fresh air moving around a little...

My back to the mountain, I am rediscovering how to be still.

Watch the sun drop below the horizon. In the distance, the sound of traffic. Evening lights all across the city beginning to come on.

Silence. See the world with an open heart.

Some resolutions: I will climb mountains rather than stand at the bottom of them looking up. I will explore. I will breathe. I will feel the earth beneath my feet. I will look closely to see the heart of things. I will plant things and help them to grow. I will care for them with all of my heart. I will be still when necessary. I will be silent when my heart has no words. And when it does, I will speak them, seasoned with grace, without reserve. I will not hold back. I will allow myself to feel the difficult feelings -- pain, sadness, anger -- and I will speak of them honestly, not to take revenge, but to give them air and wings to fly. But neither will I hold back in love. I will be elated. I will give of myself. I will not hold back.

Peace. So help me, God.